will i ever get it back?

I am worrying about getting my camera back from the camera shop that doesn't answer their phone or open up anymore. But I have also been worried for over 3 years now if I will get my "life" back. Well, probably not the way it was. Which is fine but I would like to get some of the things back that I have known. Surfing, intellectual conversations with creative peers, romance, travel. I don't mind if I never climb a huge mountain again or travel by rickety train to a remote desert village, but I would still like to experience the thrill of surfing a short board in warm Pacific waters and the stimulation of discussing the latest creative ramblings with good friends until 3:00am. With #2 on the way, I can truly say it will be awhile. But at least I know I'll always be a mom now.

concentration

working from home

I don't know if it's easier or harder to work from home. I am sure you get a lot of interruptions from coworkers when you are at an office but it's probably different than my experience of being interrupted by a preschooler.

Today I was shooting a few small objects for my new website and some posters that a guy in New Zealand is interested in buying. All the time Merrik kept walking through the shot or ran his trains into the objects I was shooting. If it's not this he wants to do letters on the computer (write an email with the keyboard), stand on my lap while I type or watch toy Thomas on You Tube. The joys of being a work at home mom!

my guys

jonesin'

So I have been thinking that I wanted to "get away from" photography for about the last year and a half. Well, I have been without my camera (my digital camera that is-the film one is too expensive and time consuming now, except I have considered lugging out the big ol' 4x5) since January 2nd and I am going through withdrawals. Now I know I can't help but do photography. I already knew I couldn't help but make websites but now I know I am a photographer too. I guess after 20 years of "shooting" you can't just stop even if you have other creative outlets.
My camera is in need of repair and I've never been thrilled with it from the beginning. Now after 12408 actuations (shots!) it's giving me a chance to get out. My first attempt will be to confront Nikon with all the issues I've been having with the camera since the beginning. Then I'll decide where to go from there. I have been committed to Nikon for so long now that I would feel weird going to Canon. However, that's the way all the "real" pros are going. The other issue would be the lenses. I hate my lenses but when you have all the added costs of kids it's hard to justify buying good, fast Nikon lenses. But if I start making money doing my photography again, well then...So, watch for my new "modern portraiture" promotions!

identity crisis

So, I've been wanting to do a blog that is related to my work but didn't know quite how to approach it. What voice would I use? Me as frustrated and bored photographer ready to up the ante, me as artist's consultant, me as eco fanatic, me as mom with baby on the way. I have been struggling with the fact that I have so much to share about all my identities but not too sure artists interested in how to promote themselves would be interested in hearing about my favorite eco design inspirations. So, I am going to just roll it all in together and not worry about it. It's all kristianne koch riddle anyway and one aspect contributes to the other. My husband thinks I am nuts already spending as much time as I do on my photography and website programming so now everyone else can see how nutty I am about all this. I have been wanting a creative outlet for my identity crisis and tried to start doing mixed media work but nothing has transpired so maybe this will be a stepping stone.